| hallllowwwweeeeen 08..and updates. |
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geez. a while since i wrote in here again
so many stories so little time.
i've tried over and over to stop talking to emily, she keeps hurting me, knows she does it, and still fucks me over. gotta love it i guess.
i show her how im always coming back, always caring, always answering the fucking phone, always answering text messages, fucking calling her at night like she ask to say goodnight. and i get bullshit in return, just more of a broken heart.
i blocked her on aim, itried not talking to her, didnt work that well.. i still talk to her.
whatever, im gonna keep crawling back. i could write so much about how she hurts me but im sure if i wrote what she's done id be more of an asshole then i am now.
hallowwweeeenn.
so i pregamed at like..8 ish
not even
like 7, then ate wings.. yum teryiake however they're spelt.
followed by tony picking us up and going to dunkin, me drinking alot more, then going to giggles to pickup beer.
went back to dunkin, alexa bugged on me crying over how im a dick, i dont care, when i show i do. im sorry, but whatever i guess. i dont wanna get into this on here.
followed by me being extreamly drunk my whole night.
followed by..seeing chris so drunk it scares me.
chris has never been this bad that ive seen..he tore down a fucking gate. like the ones at toll booths..yeah that's fucking bad
we went to centre ave, drank in there. chris didnt being as he was worse then ever, and sick, and puking up who knows what..i poured beer on him purposly..
then i had to carry him to dunkin, tony was drunk but he drove, so dumb, espicailly since i asked him for a ride.
chris laid outside my house puking, then outside the cul-de-sac as the french type it,,puking, he went to sleep in his car DT passed by, so said fuck it. so as i type hes on my bed..sleeping/puking in my pillowcase..yum.
emily and i got into this huge argument, how i told her she cant love me if shes going to do the things she does. that's not fucking love, at all.
tony called like 5 mins ago, asking how chris is.
i dont know what else to write, i man ive been pretty good, skating everynight really, and went to flushing the othernight it wa ssickkkkkk
best session in a long time.
theres alot more to write but for now im over and out.
p.s. - chris just farted in his sleep
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[01 Oct 2008|11:01pm] |
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soooooo where to begin this time.
i drove my mom to her friends house tonight so i can have a car, what a good feeling to have the car.
emily had asked me to visit her at work, i didnt really respond, nor did she after that.
so i surprised her anyways with a dozen roses[:, cause obviously im some big asshole.
such a good feeling just seeing her, no joke. i ordered empanadas, they're her favorite..basically i let her eat them, and i got her favorite drink and left that with her so she had something to drink and eat.
it made me feel good that idk i guess that i still take care of her?
so i asked her if she wanted me to get her when she's off (9:30) it was currently like just turning 8
so i finished feeding her and such and i parked down the road and slept in the car until 915.
i did, no joke, i didnt want to be late getting her so i did that. crazy what love does to you
it's 11:11 :) im wishing<3333
anyways, i folded down the seats in the back and slept listening to brand new,
bah
she just called me:) and again i have the BIGGEST SMILE EVER. she called me on 11:11:) and she wanted to tell me to wish<3:) and she's so cute and ugh:)ewfifesdfeposmfpwj4eoifwe. she makes me smile so big so much. this girl is so just, she really is like biusfibdgo idk i love her so much. we really were meant to be.
sorry about my tangent, its just nobody could make me smile so big and be so happy ever<3
so i slept for over and hour in the car.
went to get her, and she gave me such big hugs and so many kisses.
everytime i get a hug or kiss i get the biggest butterflys ever, and i never had them before going out with her, its such a good feeling.
it was so weird, on my way there, i was so nervous. and scared
and she had a bad day and was being mean before, but she told me i made her night so good:)
and that when she saw me her heart jumped and she was so happy
i honestly am head over heels in love with the girl, end of story.
<3
on my drive home:(
ill follow you into the dark came on
and i started to cry so much
i used to sing it to her:(
so the moral of the story is: even if you get hurt or if it hurts, follow your heart, learn to forgive. It'll all eventually get better so long as you have faith and believe. i dont know where iw as going but, emily makes me smile so big:) and i love it, i love her.
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[01 Oct 2008|04:30pm] |
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why
the fuck
do i try
if your gonna treat me like the way you do
HONESTLY?
im fucking crazy, im sick, its redic.
WHY DO I ACT LIKE WERE STILL BF AND GF?
i can only imagine
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| Love knows no limits. |
[30 Sep 2008|11:54pm] |
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its like
idk
shit fucking sucks dick so bad
and everytime i see 11:11
i wish every single fucking time
that she'd get back together with me
i throw coins in fountains
look for shooting stars
xxxkathrynx
yeah but the thing with that, and i'm in the same situation....there's nothing you can do
because it's not your fault
we did nothing wrong
Joseph Anderson
i know
xxxkathrynx
except love the person
Joseph Anderson
yup
xxxkathrynx
and now we're getting fucked over for it
Joseph Anderson
mmhmm
but like
you almost
dont care in a way
because you want that person
you want to be with them
that bad
you care and love them
that much
xxxkathrynx
i know
Joseph Anderson
love knows no limits.
Joseph Anderson
yup
you can be like
its a waste of time
xxxkathrynx
everyone tells me to break up with hima nd i'm like nopee
Joseph Anderson
and ill disagree
cause i fucking loveee her
xxxkathrynx
yeah what anyone else says doesn't matter at all
Joseph Anderson
yup exactly
i get shit from everyone
even my parents.
xxxkathrynx
my roommates don't tell me to break up with him, they just say they wouldn't be able to put up with him. all my guy friends tell me to break up with him though
Joseph Anderson
same concept for me
xxxkathrynx
you've been putting up with it for so much longer though, i feel worse for you
Joseph Anderson
you have no clue
but like
idk
in my head,my heart.
in me
i keep saying its all worth it
i do
everything is
i know its crazy to say
but its true
because i know she loves me
she does
and i know that what we had was real
and true
and is so hard to find
and i have so faith in us
that iwill never doubt us
Joseph Anderson
i guess i just dont get it, she had what she wanted, i gave it to her,and shes still not happy, i try to come close again and she like wants it but doesnt
what the fuck do i do? i dont give up, i know that much
xxxkathrynx
i guess i'd just wait it out
Joseph Anderson
i never will, i told her. i'd wait til the end of time, im gonna get so fucked for it
caus ei know ill get hurt
xxxkathrynx
yep i will too
Joseph Anderson
but it'll be worth it when im with her
and ill prove everyone wrong
every single personJoseph Anderson
i guess i just dont get it, she had what she wanted, i gave it to her,and shes still not happy, i try to come close again and she like wants it but doesnt
what the fuck do i do? i dont give up, i know that much
xxxkathrynx
i guess i'd just wait it out
Joseph Anderson
i never will, i told her. i'd wait til the end of time, im gonna get so fucked for it
caus ei know ill get hurt
xxxkathrynx
yep i will too
Joseph Anderson
but it'll be worth it when im with her
and ill prove everyone wrong
every single person
Joseph Anderson
and like
i love it
when im with her
im so happy
couldnt be happier
i love the feeling
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[30 Sep 2008|11:36pm] |
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I DIDNT FUCKING DO ANYTHING WRONG TO YOU NOT ONCE NOT TWICE NOT NEVER LOOK WHAT YOU DO TO ME, HOW YOU TREAT ME. THANK YOU.
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| tonight tonight tonight tonight tonight tonight. whatever it was, i dont know. |
[30 Sep 2008|12:33am] |
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bah, im trying to call emily to say goodnight since she texted me asking me that before we left.
onto my day/night.
isn't it amazing how you can show someone how much you care, tell them how much you love them, and well, show them how things have..changed? Not in a bad way, in an accepting way, where it took time for that one person to change to show the other person that things can work out, and they didnt change purposely, they just happened, i just saw what it was. thats all. I dont know exactly where im going with this.
i woke up, did whatever, cleaned up, did more of whatever, texted emily a few times or so, finally some action. 150 came, i went got a sticky pad, still didnt eat, when and got emily from school, from there we went to instant karma which was closed...bummer. then to the mall! we went to every girly store imaginable. yessssir it was fun, i got emily 2 hats..some ex boyfriend i am. whatever, i do it out of love and kindness, and yeah. So then we went to mcdonalds (her favorite), then nassau CC (community college) i didnt wanna type it and yet i do, so anyways i let her drive around the campus so she can practice, it wasnt that bad, honestly. soooooooo from there we go to meet up with her friends, on the way emilys like oh you should drink with us, yet im driving, so right away i go no. we went to some beach, they drank, i made fun of them, it was whatever, drove them around=/, everywhere. literally. boardwalk, 2 blocks up, 2 more blocks up, then some other beach.
nyyfan624
eh
i dont know, im just diff
no matter who it is...if a girl did that to me
id never talk to or look at her
ever
swear on it
Joseph Anderson
but you have to remember, im different. the way i feel about her, the way i see her, no matter what she does or what happens i will always be there waiting for her, supporting her, and holding her, guiding her, i will always love her, no matter what happenes, because it makes you do some stupid, crazy stuff, and that's fine, every single minute i spend, effort i put into it, is not wasted time or space money anything, its all worth it, she's worth it. i love her.
whatever, im in love with her. From the good times, to the bad to the feelings she give me, that i've never had.
nice rhyme not intended.
anyways, i basically realized its not a big deal if the girls drinking, like when im there its pretty cool i dont care im over it, thats what i needed time to realize that i was nuts? still am sortof but that when she does stupid shit, or shit, id rather be there for it to see that if anything happens it'd be cool cause i can help or take care of her, even if im not, just give me the time to get used to it. idk, i think she honestly needs to take a look at what she had and see that, sometimes you cant always have your cake and eat it, but hell idk. whatever
fuck what i was saying
anyways she drank and i did alot for her, then we sat and talked alot, alot. i mean A LOT.
then we went to point lookout and laid down in the back of the car together, talking, crying, and then cuddling so much
like i dont get how someone can play with someone elses heart so much, unintentionally, i mean she doesnt do it purposly, but i just wish shed get it right through her head, like she obviously wants me still but theres something stopping her. sometimes, i just wanna punch a wall, i was so close, im like going nuts, im more concerned about make a girl i love more then anything happy, yet dont have in my life keep in mind (as a girlfriend), then making myself stable, calm, happy. because LOVE does such crazy things to you, its redic.
and i dont mind, because something inside me keeps me going, (love), and keeps telling me that i know its all going to work out, its all going to be okay, and i will be with her. i have never been so comfortable around another person in my life with telling them anything, i have never pictured myself being with someone like i have her. Tonight she told me "i know it's random but, the other day i was thinking, and i honestly can't see myself growing old with anybody but you" and i told her i feel the same way, because i know we will, i know it. I know that she loves me, and i know she will be with me. I told her i feel the same way, no joke. I told her how i could tell her ANYTHING which ive told her ... well everything, and how im so like fine with being with her, and doing things that're new and all sorts of stuff like that cause ive never been so happy with someone and ive never loved someone like i love her, its not only that though, its just how i could have such a shitty day yet i could basically see her and smile, i could hear her voice and be fine, shes so amazing and shes too important for me to just let go of and give up, i will never. and even if i dont end up with her, i will always love her.
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I don't know if I'll get up
And I don't wanna cause a scene
But I'm dyin' without your love
I'm beggin' to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you
p.s. - i've never been so sure of anything in my life that i wanna be with you emily.
p.p.s - you're my everything, and i love you. Dont ever forget how much you mean to me, and how bad i truely need you in my life.
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[28 Sep 2008|06:17pm] |
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It's insane.
Rundown, Emilys broken up with me, stuff happened. Things that hurt me so bad. Things that if it were any other guy, he'd say FUCK YOU and stop talking to her, but i'm not any other guy, i'm joe. I'm the guy who'd go out of his way to do anything for that one person that you love most or care about most. That one person who truely makes you happy. Well in anycase, that one person is emily, and yes, i'd do anything for her, id give it all for her. I have friends yelling at me over it, how they think it's redic that somebody can hurt you so bad yet you can go back to them, but that's what love does to you, thats why love is so complex, i never felt "love" or "loved" by somebody other then mom and dad until i met her. I understand that sometimes a relationship has bumps, issues, problems..whatever, but when you realize, when both people that were in that relationship realize how much they miss each other and how different it is without them, you think something would happen. I understand myself, that i gave her space issues, i was up her ass a little too much, but obviously i realized there were some problems, but i see what was wrong, I really dont know where i was going with it, but i do see how i was. Either way, i miss the feelings, i miss everything. I miss being held, i miss the feeling of having someone there for you always, more then a friend. Somebody who cares, more then a friend..again. I miss it all, i miss her. I have 2 friends different opinions, one sees how happy she makes me, and though ive been hurt, she still supports me in my ways, then the other friend basically says fuck you, i was gonna post the conversation i had with one friend but its way too personal since he knows everything that if i put it up it woudlnt be good. Basically he ask me how the fuck i could even like, kiss her, and not have a problem with it? Once again, loves makes you do crazy things, when i was with her that night, i forgot about every single bad thing and remember every good one, i thought about everything with me and her, going to montauk, cuddling, snuffulufagis, splish splash, hand on my lap when im driving, ect.
i thought of EVERYTHING, and how happy i was in that moment.
but
honestly
no girl could ever make me so happy, only emily.
agentx
whats wrong with you
me
im depressed
i miss her
agentx
aw my little chicklet
im sorry
just drink and hook up with mad biddies
youll forget her!
and your getting a beeeer mug
which i thought you would be excited about!
that i chose you to give it to!
out of allll of my few friends
Me
thanks you
i dont wanna drink
i wanna be with emily
agentx
you know i want to help you feel better, and ill listen if you talk, but you already know my opinion
me
i know
agentx
if she makes you happy ok
Me
but
she does make me happy
thats the whole thing
agentx
but if she hurts you again i swear i will kill her
Me
she makes me so happy
agentx
those livejournal entries i read didn't seem too happy
Me
everybody has a day or so
agentx
Auto-reply: this is ass
Me
when they're not happy
in their relationship
agentx
do you think its just a comfort thing, that she makes you feel good, or do y ou honestly just love her personality
me
i love her, all around
i love everything about her
agentx
alright
your extremely forgiving
after all shes done to byou
me
because
i love her
more then anything
no girls made me feel like she has
agentx
not to sound like a bitch, but is it mutual? i know she loves you too, obviously, but no one should ever treat someone like she has treated you
Me
she tells me she loves me
she told me so many times last ngiht
but like
i dont know.
agentx
i know she loves you
but she dosnt apprciaite you at all the times she should
she fucks up and then realizes it, then fucks up again
me
but i believe in
what me and her had is real
that it was true love.
and
agentx
i beleive that too
me
i believe that
agentx
ive seen you guys together
Me
theres always a second chance at true love
and it will never fail
no matter what
agentx
your a poet
truely
its gross
Me
thats why i got meet me in montauk tattood on my le
g
it had to do with her and what i had with her
agentx
i know
which was dumb
Me
no
it wasn't
it means something to me
she means something to me, she's my everything
agentx
her
and if say 20 years from now
your with someone else
not emily
Me
i wont be:(
ill be with her:(
honestly, i wish i could of suspended myself in time last night when she was in my arms when were asleep. (Having her in my arms, or me in her arms is one of the most amazing feelings i've ever had, She's the only girl to ever give me butterflys. I need that feeling back =/)
i havent been that happy in months, and i wish something could/would click in her head to see how good this is.
Well, there's no need to fight, we're just wasting time,Tonight , If you give it a try well then maybe you'll find We might work this out Well, we know we're in love so let's keep it alive Keep it alive, keep it alive Tonight I'm starting to see the morning light We finally worked this out
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[09 Apr 2008|03:13pm] |
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mcuh i love you, so please dont take my sunshine away.
Its been 11 weeks since i wrote in here.
Im writing cause im upset and theres nothing else i can do.
Today i was sent down to a psychiatrist and social workers and whatnot because of how im acting, pretty redic right?
i guess so.
I didnt eat all that much.
i kinda just dont know what to do, you know? cause i sit here wondering how you feel and it scares me, yeah, it scares the shit out of me.
like you just signed on and i cant even im you.
its so hard.
I guess this seems like an act of desperation but its not its just a way to get out what ineed to get out so i can try to sleep tonight, so i dont cry tonight.
My parents have tried to talk to me
My teachers, people
i just, ive never been so quiet and to myself.
Im just scared.
i just need you in my life, like we were before.
i never want to lose you, you are my everything.
Dear Emily,
I love you, forever.
Love always, joe
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[21 Jan 2008|01:00am] |
You ever get that feeling where I guess you just feel like the cause of problems.
idk i guess that's how ifeel, emily and i argued over alot tonight and it made me feel like i caused all of them, if only i didnt do this, or didnt ask this, or didnt want this, then we woudlnt be arguing in the first place. If i would of stopped kissing you on the back and biting you, or "given you a minute without kissing or licking or biting and stuff" and i just felt bad, cause i made you cry because idk you thought it hurt me, and i guess it did but i dont wanna hurt you or see you cry or anything. i just love you. we argued alot, and i dont want that, we talked, and i got stuff all crazy. i balled, honestly i cried my eyes out ALOT tonight, more then i have in a long time and im so sorry
i dont wanna fight but i dont wanna hold you back
but you and certain things just make me uncomfortable i guess
and i love you and will never stop
and the reason is because i think its just like i do care about you so much and i want to live my life for and with you
like tonight i feel like you kinda took a few things out on me and they made me feel alot like shit
but i know you dont mean to or whatever
i just idk, i feel like its all my fault now for whatever is wrong, and im sorry for everything ive done wrong
im sorry for being annoying
asking you to stop certrain things
asking you to try to relax with them because it means alot because i am uncomfortable with you and it
for crying over all of this
for being me=/
im just sorry
and
well
i love you
i really had alot more to write but i got sidetracked.
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[25 Dec 2007|01:17am] |
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emilyemilyemilyemilyemilyemilyemily, i'm writing this for you
i don't have pen and paper
its 1:18
i feel so sick
and im ready to pass out
this BLOWS.
I'm in florida.
Lets see we'll start from when i woke up.
Woke up didn't feel 100% but i said oh well and went to work, left early,got home.
talked to you for a little bit, made me pretty happy then showered and such and left for the airport
i talked to you in the airport and then i went on my plane
hour and a half delay, i left tampa airport by 9:30, my flight was at 5? 5 something? idk
so basically i surprised my grandparents, they didnt know we were coming, and there was an adorable 3 year old girl with curly blonde hair. She had the biggest crush on me and danced with me to spanish music, (everyone i see here is espanol), and she gave me a hug.
ANYWAYS
so i look up here and i see stars
that's it
stars and the moon
it's beautiful, i think of you
so much
i miss you, and i've come to realize that living life without you is so hard
being without for a period of time is hard
anything without you is hard
you're such an important part of me and i love you with all of my heart
being this far
my trips sucked so far, the only good thing was you being there for me
you leaving me messages and not forgetting me, not forgetting to text me
not forgetting anything
this is one reason why you will always be my girl.
i can see why i'm so sick currently.
i've eaten moldy crutons
2 year old 4c iced tea mix
stale stale stale chips
it keeps getting worse on me but oh well
it'll get better as i talk to you.
honestly
i miss you so much right now
i miss you all the time
and i want to be with you all the time
since hopefully i know you'll read this
27th, am i going there or you coming here?
anddd what else hrm, im trying not to like
puke
i keep getting worse and worse as i type
anywaysssssssssssssss
you're amazing
i wish i had a larger vocabulary and knew more words that had a stronger effect then amazing and love because i feel so much more then that for you
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(You should know better?)
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
(You should see why)
dropped in the state of imaginary grace
(You should know better?)
I made a pilgrimage to save this humans race
(You should see why)
What I'm comprehending a race that long gone bye
(I'll stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(I'll stop the world)
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
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It's officially a month with you Emily, i honestly couldn't be happier. No girl will ever make me feel like you do, or can come close to how you do. I'm sorry for the little dumb things i do, like worry so much over something that shouldn't matter. Things happen in the past that fucked me over and it makes me worry for no reason. I know you wouldn't do anything, idk. Alcohol gets the worst of people! ha, anyways. Back to what i came to type this for, i couldn't be any happier. You're so just perfect and amazing. I've spent so much time with you and you never stop amazing me. We take cute pictures in Rockefeller center, random ones in the city, and you are perfect. I never write in this journal because sometimes it brings back bad memories of people in the past. I realized that i'm going to write in here more because i know i will always be with you and i can look back to an entry like this to see how happy i was and realize i still am at the time im looking at this. nevertheless i will always be with you and never leave you. I'm sorry i can't spend christmas with you or christmas eve. I promise ill spend new years eve with you, and i'll make it amazing. I dont care what we do, you always make me feel happy and good on the inside. This is like a huge rant but i don't want to stop writing. Sometimes, more like alot of the time, i hear guys complain about their girlfriend or complain about the stupidest things, and i was thinking how i never will nor do i ever complain about you because you truely are the most amazing girl. You know so much about me. I know you love me and it makes me feel so good. You know the things i like, such as the hat you got me. You know how to get me feeling....foisegdiofjs. You just know every little thing that makes me happy. And i want you to always know how i love you so much and i will never feel any different, except for loving you even more then i do, and i always will love you,i promise.
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[01 Dec 2007|11:36pm] |
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I think even the last time i have updated this, it was like a survey, that didnt work. But anyways, i figured i'd throw some stuff in and tell you how things are going for right now. Honestly? As of thanksgiving of 07 i've had a girlfriend, and i know it seems soon but i honestly love her, i love her to death. She makes me feel like no other and she's the most amazing girl i've ever met. I really say stupid things and do stupid things around her but she seems to love me no matter what i do or how i do it. I've never been so happy with someone ever, like tonight i went to see the christmas tree in uniondale and went to friendlys with my parents and her and i gave her piggyback rides and kissed her and got her stuffed animals and it's just so perfect. Everything about this girl (named emily which i never said, i'm sorry) is so perfect, she treats me right, she tells me everything i love to hear, she's just amazing and no girl could ever compare to how perfect she will ever be.
Other then having a perfect girl, i've been okay. I've broken my ankle, i cracked it in half as well as my tibia. Skating again and a senior in highschool.
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You would think that from last year us boys learned a lesson.
New years, it started out as well im going to hangout with my ex girlfriend krista.
Plan Backfires, never happens.
But I make new plans.
Im going to now hangout with russell.
Plan Backfires, he goes to a party
But I make new plans YET AGAIN.
I invited like 2 other people over.
Plan backfires, dont come.
So, as i'm sitting down watching the south park marathon on comedy central
im getting bored
still sitting
then wtf, mario theme song.
Somebodys calling, RUSSELL!
nice.
Russ - "Yo im at maria's"
Me - "i can tell your drunk already"
Russ - "The cops just came, i dont know what to do were bugging"
Me - "alright start over, what happened?"
Russ - "Marias party! the cops came, and matt got hit by a car (not hargrove), and im with matt and were drunk and its his first time drinking so hes crazy. CAN WE COME OVER? just for a little"
Me - "alright listen, stay until like 12 ish or whatever."
so now im sitting on my laptop, then RING A DING
they're here.
Matts piss drunk, holy shit. I helped him up the stairs, and russell is...russell?
We sat down,i gave them some food, we watched the ball drop.( it was 1130 ish by the time they got there)
Matt had to pee, so i watched him so he dosnt do anything stupid
He wouldnt stop confessing how he loves julia,
Me and matt, kindof kissed. it was gay
So russell and i realized that every year we all end up at my house, somebodys drunk, something bunz happened.
So like always i had mad fireworks, we hit both houses next door, and a car.
and some other shit.
and shot off a special firework to remain friends and that we will be at my house every new years eve
Matt Russ Joe.
Otherwise, basically spent alone.
Matt peed outside in front of my neightbors
Russell was Drunk
Matt was Drunk
They both wanted to fuck my blowup doll
and 7 days until my birthday.
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So lets see
I GOT BACK FROM ENGLAND IRELAND AND WALES WOOT!
i had fun, i'll have pictures soon enough.
but, i met a girl on the trip
i liked her alot.
things didnt work out basically
and i shot myself in the face.
but we're "friends" now so its cool =/
otherwise
TODAYS
AUGUST 17TH
so bad.
HORRIBLE.
matt calls me after work and is like yo joe, wanna go skate?
and of course i do so i go yeah ill meet you in vs blah blah cuz thats where we were going
we met up at target with RM,Jimmy,Drew.
sat there for 2 hours
jimmy left
rm drew matt and i decided to go skate and film
lucky drew wasnt filming yet.
i ollie a tiny 3 and shit
and then theres a 6
i go to kickflip it
land wrong
start screaming
basically crying
in pain.
SO MUCH PAIN HOLY SHIT
i was there for 20 minutes because my moms phone was off so i couldnt go to the hospital
finally she calls me out of nowhere.
i tell her
"LISTEN, I THINK MY FOOT IS BROKEN."
she rushes over here.
after sitting there for 30 minutes, she goes
"WERE GOING TO THE ER"
and i was there for 2 hours
found out i was close to breaking it.
it was a VERY VERY VERY bad sprain.
and i probably tore my ligaments.
so yeah this sucks.
FIN.
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just so you know
she broke UP with me
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[09 Feb 2006|09:21pm] |
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im not gonna write what i was originally going to write
which was a conversation between me and matt
but things happen.
but you ever get those feelings where sometimes somehow
you know somethings gonna happen
but you dont like to say it
but you know for a fact its going to happen
and that its coming
because of the way people act
or the way they talk or the way they seem.
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HI KATHRYN!!!!!!!!
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